I’m not a big believer in beating around the bush. I’ve always felt it was much better to just rip off the band-aid and be done with it. And so, I’m just going to tell you — in case you haven’t already figured it out based on the lack of recent posting — that I have decided to shut down this blog. Well, not shut it down completely. It will still exist, and I still will provide occasional content for it. But it won’t be Dodgers content or baseball content or anything of that nature. Unlike four years ago when I was laid off by the Los Angeles Daily News, and unlike a year and a half ago when I parted ways with ESPNLosAngeles.com, this time, I really mean it: I am absolutely, positively done covering baseball. It was a great ride, something I did for almost 20 years, but it’s finally time to move on and do something else.
I suppose I owe you an explanation. Well, there are a few reasons for my decision.
The first was that even though I never got around to installing the pay wall, it became clear from the traffic this site was getting that we never were going to get enough paid subscribers to keep this thing afloat. Oh, with the right nurturing and marketing and planning, it might have turned profitable four or five years down the road. But honestly, I don’t want to keep pouring money down a hole for that long, especially when there are no guarantees that it will EVER be a successful venture.
The second reason is that after all these years, I simply have had my fill of covering baseball. I used to think I wanted to do it until I dropped dead of old age. But it isn’t fun anymore, and to be honest with you (and with myself), it really hasn’t been for the past several years. To the outsider, this probably looks like a glamorous job, and you know, to some extent, it is. But it’s also an exhausting, all-encompassing job, one from which you can never quite break free, even in the offseason. With another birthday coming up in a few weeks, I have decided that I want to spend the rest of my life, well, having a life, and that is a luxury you don’t really enjoy on the baseball beat. Too many 6 a.m. flights after night games, too many late-night meals, too many airport meals, too many hotel meals, too many days when I dragged myself to the ballpark in a zombie-like state, too many pounds packed on seemingly every season because there usually isn’t enough time to go to the gym and even when there is time, there is almost NEVER enough energy. It catches up with you after a while, especially as you get older, and it can make you get older more quickly than you’re supposed to.
And finally, there is this: on the two previous occasions that I stopped covering baseball, I was OK with the possibility of never doing it again, but the problem was I had no idea what else I wanted to do. This time, I have a lot of things I want to do, and while I won’t bore you with too many details about them, let’s just say I’m excited about all of them. The reality of today’s economy is that the old idea of having that one job that you go to every day, that job that is the centerpiece of your life and around which the rest of your life is planned and arranged, is no longer viable for a lot of us. For an increasing segment of the population, the future will involve doing a little of this, a little of that and a few other things on the side, generating various income streams. It’s an idea I have only recently begun to consider, much less embrace, and as someone with a short attention span and a tendency to bore easily, I think it might be perfect for me. And so that is what I’m planning to do. For now, at least.
So that’s what I wanted to tell you. And now, I want to hand out some thank-yous.
First, to those of you who have followed this blog and who have followed me throughout the years. Some of you, I have had the privilege of getting to know personally. Some have even become friends, and I hope will remain so going forward. But just know that I truly appreciate every single one of you, the positive feedback and kind thoughts you have sent my way.
I want to thank some of the great colleagues whom I have had the pleasure of working alongside. I won’t name all of them here because there are just too many of them and I’m afraid I would leave somebody out, but they know who they are.
I want to thank Kristen Wair for designing this site, for being there to provide support both technical and emotional and for not charging me very much for any of it. Without her, this thing might never have gotten off the ground, because I ain’t no web designer.
And I want to thank Phil Stone, who took such an interest in this blog that he became an active participant and contributor even though he knew I couldn’t pay him. His daily pregame numbers posts during the season and the playoffs was a fantastic addition to dodgerscribe, especially given that I’m not much of a numbers guy — I’m much more comfortable weaving a narrative. And for those of you who enjoyed the podcasts that Phil and I recorded, well, you have him to thank for them, because I wouldn’t have the first clue how to edit and post one of those things. Those were Phil’s baby, and he did a fantastic job with them. I know he had some ambitious ideas for this blog, and there is a part of me that wishes we could have seen some of them through.
Even as I bring the curtain down on what this blog originally was supposed to be, I WILL maintain a presence on Twitter (@dodgerscribe), even though my tweeting habits probably will continue to drift farther away from baseball and more into the random (and sometimes-sarcastic) thoughts that often find their way into my brain. As for this blog, I’m probably going to change the name — to what, I don’t know yet, but as soon as I do, I will alert you on Twitter. One thing for which I haven’t lost my passion is writing, and this blog will continue to provide me with an outlet for that. However, it will become more of a personal-journal type of blog, with no real structure or schedule that says I have to write every day or X number of days a week. Again, there will be a lot of randomly selected topics, rants, thoughts, opinions, gripes, etc. And I can almost promise you there will be heavy doses of politics, a subject I have been passionate about since high school — and believe me, high school was a LONG time ago.
A lot of you won’t be interested in reading any of what I’ll be posting here, and I don’t blame you. But for those of you who are, feel free to visit anytime and, as always, to comment on anything that I write.
Thanks again for your friendship, your participation and your kindness. This is not the end, but merely a new beginning.
I’ll see you soon.